Thursday, September 28, 2006
Headed for tuition right after school today. Tiring of course! its from thursday to monday.
But i'm just telling myself, 1 more week left. So sick of tuition. Its has become more of a chore, so to speak. And yes, no more tuition for the time being after PSLE. *shakes head* Nope, definately no more tuition.
So famished when i got home. Really. I had my dinner like i've never eaten before?... it was really that pathetic. I lunch at noon today and all the way till when i reached home at 8pm, i didn't consume anything. Water only, if its to be considered. *Hungry me*
Thinking about tomorrow makes me feel how essential sleep is. *hahahs* the link?....
Well, tomorrow is a full day for me, starting from 9am in the morning (which means i have to crawl out out of bed by 6.45am-i never did got up punctually... *grin*) all the way to 5pm in the evening, with only 2 slots of 15mins break and 1 lunch break.
Then i had macroeconomics today and boy! there's so much to be absorbed all at 1 go... i guess thats the way things are.
=)
Junkies treasured @ 9:34:00 PM
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
Tennis today has been fun.
Nice weather to start with, followed by right moves...the feeling is just great. Can't wait to play a full game. =)
Well, tomorrow will be having an early class. Got to sleep really early... Tired from training.
I love my life!
=)
Junkies treasured @ 7:51:00 PM
Monday, September 25, 2006
Yesterday was shopping around Paragon and yup, went to chill at Spinelli with my mum and sis. (Ladies outing yesterday) Mango-T twist is fantastically refreshing! Yummy!
We talked about lots of stuffs-our childhood, the growing up process, the future that lies ahead etc.. This gave me a new insight of parental love. Yup, i'm really thankful to have such a wonderful family. No matter what happens, i know my family will always stand by me. No doubts about it. Absolutely no doubts at all.
=)
Junkies treasured @ 10:32:00 AM
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Yay! creative ZEN Neeon2... loves it. black based. loves it.
Well, just got my blouse that i ordered online... Not what i expected though. =( Quality is super low and i can't believe i paid for such lousy quality. Guess i should stop patronising that online store. The 1st few times i ordered wasn't like that.. Quality was pretty good. This time round, MY GOODNESS. i can't believe the poor quality of clothes i'm getting.
Headed to Marina Square to do some shopping... =) Popped by Spectacle Hut and i'm surprised to see Ryan there. (after such a long time... He's always not around when i so happen to be there.) Now, he has no reason to say that i didn't bother to say Hi... That time at P.S when i wasn't sure if i saw him. So he called up and he was like, "wah, see me also don't want to come by to say hi..." But really, I didn't know it was him. I thought it might have been someone else... Anyways... he was glad i popped by.
This reminded me of another Ryan i met recently in school.
So coincidental! I was actually waiting for the lift at level 4 when suddenly the door slide open and there stood Ryan. He saw me, gave me that " i recognise you" face and then didn't even bother to acknowledge my presence. WTH is wrong with him?....
I mean seriously, if you were to see somebody whom you know, it is basic courtesy to smile or simply just give an acknowledgement. Some people are just so... so stuck-up. I know you are filthy rich but you don't have to act snobbish... Well, i don't see him with any friends... So i assume he might be a loner. If he is, serve him right for being such a poser with his own self-depicted meaning of being "COOL". Already i don't really have a good impression of him. Practically every time he opens his mouth, there goes a bunch of vulgarities. (I really don't know what's up with that)
Anyway, i can't be bothered.
For this coming 2 weeks, tuition will be every thursday, friday, saturday, sunday and monday. I am beginning to dread it. For REAL... But thankfully, its only for this 2 weeks. Afterwhich, I'M DONE!
Junkies treasured @ 9:45:00 PM
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Family.
" The fact is, there is no foundation, no secure ground, upon which people may stand today if it isn't the family. If you don't have the support and love and caring and concern that you get from a family, you don't have much at all. Love is so supremely important. As our great poet Auden said, 'Love each other or perish.'
'Love each other or perish'
That is so true. Without love, we are birds with broken wings. "
Junkies treasured @ 8:19:00 PM
Saturday, September 16, 2006
A whole new environment, a whole new experience.
I love where i am now. I simply love it.
School's in.
Met up with my girlfriends yesterday. Miss them so much. Had a great deal of time with them. Carine has got her hair cut. Hui Yee trimmed hers.
Well, seeing them makes me happy.
Loves the chat over coffee and cakes, so to speak. Hui Yee and I had hot cocoa and Carine, the usual green tea frap- i never, NEVER this those... hahahahs. Really. I don't like green tea frap. But YUp, Carine loves it...
Individual Preferences .
Well, today is exactly the first month of my grandma's passing.
Just got back from the Mandai Columbarium where we laid her urn to rest. This closes the final chapter of grandma's story.
Then we all went to Peach Garden over at Thompson (where the old, now defunctioned 'yao han' used to be) for lunch. Dim Sum is Fantastic. Peking Duck too!
Not forgeting the dessert- mango sago pomelo with coconut and ice cream.
A total of 11 heads.
Junkies treasured @ 2:59:00 PM
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Accept what you are able to do and what you are not able to do.
Accept the past as past, without denying it or discarding it.
Learn to forgive yourself and to forgive others.
Don't assume that it's too late to get involved.
The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let in come it.
Let it come in. We think we don't deserve love, we think if we let it in we'll become too soft. But a wise man named Levine said it right. He said, " Love is the only rational act."
"Love is the only rational act"
Junkies treasured @ 8:59:00 PM
Monday, September 11, 2006
So many people walk around with a meaningless life.
They seem half-asleep, even when they're busy doing things they think are important.
This is because they're chasing the wrong things.
The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to the
community around you, and devote yourself to create something that gives you purpose and meaning.
Junkies treasured @ 7:26:00 PM
Saturday, September 09, 2006
No more late night moccahino for me.
Caffine kept me awake almost the whole night, tossing and turning in bed.
Oh but the tiramisu latte over at coffee club is awesome. Loves it.
yummy!
The chill out session and shopping with my sis has been great!
Junkies treasured @ 3:25:00 PM
Saturday, September 02, 2006
I've witnessed the power of no-knowledge.
Grandma.
It started out with hospitalization. Then came the shocking truth-terminal stage of colon cancer. But these were kept away from her. She didnt know what exactly she was suffering from. What she knew was perhaps the complications that arose due to her diabetes and kidney problems. All that while, she thought she would be cured, and be discharged home. She thought she would be fine. She thought she would be going home after all the examinations, as per normal. She thought of cooking my all time favourite-buakualak when she gets home. She thought of seeing my cousins get married. She remained hopeful despite of all the complications. She remained strong. Everyone, including the doctors, was amazed by her will-power to live on especially when she had so much complication, where the suffering and pain were considered as unbearable to most patients.
All these while, she didnt complain about her pain. Day after day, she was waiting to be discharged. My aunt told her to eat, for that will give her strength. And she did. Little did we all know that she kept her bits of food stuffed in between the side of the mouth. The nurses were the ones who informed us about it when they found the yesterday's food during their washing-up of patients in the morning. Her throat was constantly in pain. The cancer cells spreaded. She pretended to eat so as to assure the rest of us that she is fine and waiting to go home. Everyone that came to visit her felt that she was clearly clinging on to something that kept her going. HOPE. That was it. The power of no knowledge during that one month stay in the hospital until one day when my aunt decided it was time to break the news to her because she was suffering really badly in silence. After which, she seemed to be in a daze, deep in thoughts. Perhaps she has decided to let go. Perhaps she felt it was time. She felt depressed. Drops of tears streamed down. She knew she had to leave. Perhaps she can't bring herself to part. Perhaps she wanted so badly to live on.
Then the day to go finally came. On Wednesday, her toes started turning bluish black. My grandpa visited her and before he left, she waved to him saying goodbye. In the afternoon, she tossed and turned as if none of the positions suited her. We ask her if she wanted to say anything. She said nothing. In the evening, she was getting really restless. At around 9pm where everyone was about to leave the hospital, her condition deteriorated. Everyone panicked as her blood pressure plunged down. There she was, gasping for breath, panting. The doctor was called in and by around 9.55pm, she left without bidding goodbye.
And so, the wake began on Thursday. We waited for grandma with our heads bowed down.
I told her I love her.
Junkies treasured @ 10:06:00 AM