Wednesday, February 28, 2007
I'm so not over and done with all the meanies in me... Its exploding within. Its just ANNOYING.
I just realised that some of THESE people are just so self-centered. Its always about themselves. Nothing else. They only do things that benefit themselves. They don't care if their actions are at the expense of others. So long as they get what they think its good for them, its worth the trouble, its worth their effort. Anything more, anything besides that, its just a plain no-go.
Who then is the meanie. Me?
*BLEAh*
They come, they make use, they try all ways and means to gain the upper-hand. That seriously suck big time man. That's the most childish way a grown-up could ever possibly behave.
Being insistent in getting what is desired sometimes isn't too good afterall...
They come, they ask about you, they show that they care when in fact, all these good-for-nothing acts spells the word ENTERTAINING.
such hypocrite.
So, perhaps this is what the real world really looks like.
scary how these world is (not surprising anymore) filled with some of THESE people.
The phrase my parents used to say- Life is not always a bed of roses. Sometimes on the way, you'll be pricked. How you deal with the wounds would reflect on the manner of recovery.
True, very true indeed.
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Came across this lyrics... Hurt-Christina Aguilera
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but
I know you won't be there
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hating you
Somedays I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything
I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much thatI've missed you since you've been away
Oh, it's dangerous
So I'm afraid to try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything
I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself By hurting you
It just serve as a reminder to treasure everyone you love, never be afraid to show how much you love them. I always do tell my siblings how much i love them. My parents too. Life is full of uncertainty. You don't know what's going to happen tomorrow. I just know i don't want to wait till its too late.
Junkies treasured @ 8:46:00 PM
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Funny how some people can be so downgrading. I may appear to be very mean in penning this down, but trust me, for the 1st time in my life, i actually met the 1st of this kind. In almost 21 years of my life, that is...
I don't quite like the idea of being too thrifty. I don't quite like the idea of sprouting a bunch of rubbish at the wrong time, at the wrong place. I don't quite like the idea of searching only in times of need. I don't quite like the idea of being pollusive.
Its just not in my world. Not now, never.
I'm just starting to feel perplexed at some of the things some people do.
I'm not used to it. And i will not be.
Don't get me wrong. It's not that i don't accept them. I do accept them. Just that i would not get close. Its not that i dont try understanding them. I tried. I just can't. I simply can't.
Its just annoying sometimes. Things that weren't meant to be spoken is spelled out. If its meant to be a joke, then i'm really sorry, i'll have to pass. Its just a joke gone wrong. A joke gone really bad.
You can say that maybe i'm not acustomed to it. Whatever then. I'm just the way i am. I may sound really stubborn right now, but if you really understood where this is coming from, good for you.
I wonder what they do and show actually reflect the same up in their brains.
I wonder how on earth do they behave the way they do.
I wonder just why they are just the way they are.
I wonder if they ever question themselves if what they perceive is right.
I wonder if they ever listen.
i wonder just how do they manage to sleep from night to night without feeling disgusted by some of their own actions.
I wonder if they ever feel ashamed.
I wonder if they ever see things from a differnt perspective.
It's just different from the world i live in.
All these may come down a little too harsh, but its just... i feel disgusted at times.
No, i don't despise neither do i look down upon them.
I just wonder why. I'm just curious. could it be the different upbringings that causes the vast difference in lifestyle and thinking?
I wonder...
Junkies treasured @ 2:29:00 AM
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Bangkok has got so much shopping to offer. Had so much fun over there! Loves it!
The food was FANTASTIC. Shopping was GOOD. Everything is just amazing. Time, again and again, is the only factor.
Stayed at the beautiful Baiyoke Sky hotel that serves inter-continental buffet breakfast at the 76th storey. Breakfast everyday is just perfect. Oversee the skyline of Bangkok while dining away. The room, my goodness, is so super big. There is like 1 bathtub plus 1 shower room. There is also a living room. Like a suite. Simply one of the best hotels i've ever stayed.
So all in all, combed Pratunam, Chaktuchak, Chinatown, Siam Paragon, Siam square, Ma boon Krong, Suam Lum. There was this BIG Ferris wheel over at suan lum, that offers fantastic view. 3 of us-pauline, kelvin and I went for the ride round the Ferris wheel. The ticket is just so low-priced, its really worth it. 100 baht per head, which is like around SGD$4? The view, is simply breath-taking.
Plus the massages, Goodness. Its just Heaven. Had massages over there for all the days i've stayed in Bangkok. Its just so relaxing.
The taxi ride to Suan Lum reminds me of the taxi-man. Quite a young chap, very humourous. The conversation was like:
Taximan: Singapore good?
We: good. you go. See see look look.
Taximan: no money.
We: Bangkok good?
Taximan: NO good. Traffic jam. NO good.
We: Today Monday. No wear yellow? (The King is born on a Monday. So its like a culture for most Thais to wear yellow on Mondays)
Taximan: NO yellow. I no like Yellow.
We: hahas. No yellow? You no like King?
Taximan: I love king. I no like Yellow. not my style.
We: steady lah!
The whole ride was just so interesting. Really.
I miss Bangkok. Not enough Time... haven't bought enough stuffs.
But then again, i should be contented. Just be happy with what i have.
Junkies treasured @ 7:15:00 PM
Thursday, February 15, 2007
Just why are there so much of emo-ing these few days? All coming from different directions, different corners. People around me. Gosh. Just ended a 1.5hr emo-ing session. Been listening real hard. Not that i don't welcome the call but the topic just revolves round and round, with almost no end to it. (Despite much sharing and thoughts being thrown in) Being nice and all, i didnt want to be rude. Its just, perhaps too much. Been trying to keep awake. Been trying real hard. Now that the conversation finally ended, i'm feeling a little hungry.
Its like 1 am right now?... I seldom sleep this late.
I miss my sleep.
Junkies treasured @ 12:49:00 AM
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
The verdict is out. I guess i'm wrong. Perhaps its all not meant to be. So be it. Life still goes on. There is nothing to feel sad about, or to be bothered by it.
Letting it go, quietly.
Everything's out. everything's written, on solid ground it stands.
History has been written.
I'M DISGUSTED, anyway.
Junkies treasured @ 12:50:00 AM
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Cousin's flying off to Perth tomorrowfor study. Well, all the best and have a safe trip there. Not going to send him off tomorrow, though i might well see him 3 years later. Having lecture the whole day tomorrow. My parents are going to see him tonight. I wouldn't be going, i have tuition this evening. And my lecture starts early the next morning. Well, yes. Then again, i'm not quite close to my cousin. So, that explains.
Next week is coming on fast as well. With Valentine's day just round the corner, it just means my scheduled flight is drawing near. So near. My relatives are also flying overseas during the feastive season. To India. Seems like everyone's travelling more often nowadays. Just back from the states, they are off to India soon and then come april, they are off to thailand. As for us, Korea would be the next destination after Thailand this year. Probably around June? It depends.
Its just amazing how Singaporeans choke up all flights during feastive seasons especially. All flights FULLY BOOKED. even 2-3 months before. Not surprising, the scheduled flight was selling fast when my dad booked 3 months back.
Junkies treasured @ 3:58:00 PM
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Each family has got its own set of problems. That, i'll have to agree fully. Its like, i don't know... Sometimes, when things go rough, the feelings just suck big time. I don't know if there is a communication breakdown or something of that sort but somehow or other, its just getting me bugged. I'm not quite sure of the idea as to whether couples do get "enough" of each other, they want to have a space of their own. At least, i see that happening to my parents now. Don't know what's wrong with them both. Seriously. I'd just hope the weather clears for the better. Just don't know what the hell is wrong. Its like, they are not quarrelling (which is good) but on the other hand, they are not talking like the way they used to do. Its only when necessary. I'm just so bugged.
Ok, just as i'm blogging right now, both of them just left house. To buy stuffs, so to speak. Am i just being overly sensitive? I hope i am, but actions do speak louder than words.
Right, enough of them. I really hope things do work out well.
So, its going to be another 10 days before my flight to Bangkok. Chinese new year on foreign soil. That would be an experience.
Junkies treasured @ 8:10:00 PM
Monday, February 05, 2007
i might just be wrong. i might just be. i'll wait and see.
Junkies treasured @ 12:32:00 AM
Friday, February 02, 2007
Patience is virtue.
Junkies treasured @ 11:05:00 PM