MY MEMORIES
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
My head is so heavy... i feel it spinning. Big time.
I'm feeling just so under the weather. Deep down under.
My ears are slightly blocked. My throat hurts. These are just the days where you simply feel lethargic. Not by choice-that goes without saying, of course! I'm just so moody. My mood swings. Temperamental. I can't hit the bed for as long as i want. Headaches will coming haunting me. Even so, as i am sober right now, my skull feels like its ripping off from my brain. I feel like i've been induced with some sort of current. Magnetic maybe. Whatever. This whole Virus is putting me down. I am held down. I try so hard to rebel and i'm still trying hard. Feels like a lousy day. Feels like a losing battle. The remedies are just taking too slow to work. Maybe i should just be patient. I just visited the professional. Yes. Its just me. Its just my mood now. I feel there is nothing to make me feel better. I feel like i'm just warming the seats. I feel like i'm rotting slowly, like how a predator devour its prey alive, as the Virus takes another cell within me. And the haze is just accelerating the process of what it seemed like a losing battle. At least for now, yes. That's the way it seems now. That's the way. My eyes seem like they are popping out anytime soon. The feeling is just horrible. But this is just for the moment. This i know.
Junkies treasured @ 5:58:00 PM
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